Hello, 2015!

2014 is yet the most heartbreaking year of my existence! It hit me right when I am most vulnerable. Nonetheless, it was a happy and memorable year — one which enabled me to embrace myself and every inch of my womanhood.

My first ever 2015 Instagram selfie! Ha ha ha!

Meanwhile, hello 2015! May we have more sleepless nights together — spent to reading, studying, researching, and working. I look forward to whatever great opportunity you may have to offer , as well as any heartache you may challenge me with.

Let’s do this!


Singing Along “Sad Movies”

According to Papa, I would always sing the song entitled, “Sad Movies”. He further added that my favorite line then was, “Ooh… Sad Movies… Always make me cry…”

Now I realize, even happy memories make me burst into sobs and tears.

(Circa 1990)

I Want to Be Just Like Teresita

Friends and loved ones would always ask me about my “ideal” age to settle down; that is, to get married and have children. Oh boy, I always evaded questions like that. For one, I really don’t know how to respond properly. Next, I’ve always believed there is no such thing as that “ideal” age. And for god’s sake — I’m only twenty five years old!

But deep within – in my remote consciousness – I’m pretty convinced that I wouldn’t be able to marry and be the mother our society expects me to be.

Or maybe not.

Whenever I say “No, I wouldn’t want to get married”, “I wouldn’t find the right guy for me”, and other lame excuses, my friends and loved ones would always be “bothered”. They think there’s something I breed with resentment. Worst, they imagine that I am a lesbian or something (Yes, I think that one is hard core STEREOTYPING!) And as I repeat those remarks, they are becoming more convinced that there really is something wrong with me.

For the record, there isn’t anything that complicates my life, enough to make me think horrible about marriage and motherhood. In fact, I’ve always regarded these as two of the most important milestones a woman should hurdle, if not accomplish. Besides, who wouldn’t want to experience the joys of marriage and motherhood — two of the gazillion things my family showed and rooted me into, with flying colors?

In case I do become a wife and mother, I can only hope that I’d be just like Teresita – my mother.


My momma, Teresita (or “Terry” as we fondly call her), with our pops. :)

Now, I think one of the major reasons behind my evasiveness to marriage and motherhood is my fear not to be as good as my mother. I am scared to death not to become the kind of woman who, like her, is loving, affectionate, and supportive to her husband. I fear the notion of having to experience failure of making my marriage work when it goes “on-the-rocks”. And I am pretty sure I’d be shattered to “fine” pieces if I don’t get to raise my future children, just the way Mama did on me and my two younger brothers.

And until I have enough courage to get out of my shell and be as brave and courageous as Mama had done to face her life with us, I think I wouldn’t be worthy of the title “wife” and “mother”.

Happy Mother’s day to the best warrior whom I’ve seen battle all wars and challenges life has to offer — with glam and style! Thank you for giving me a clear blueprint of how this little girl in me could “grow up” to become the fine lady you’d want me to be.

We love you, Ma!

On “Hiatus” and Selfies…



A selfie I took in my previous office. :)

Yes, you read the title right. Apparently, I’ve been in some sort of hiatus in the past year. This is because I’ve been busy with law school and all other related stuff. But now that the tormenting second semester of my freshman year is finally over, I thought it would be best to write and share again through writing.

As you all know, I still maintain my blogspot account. And while I’m still in the process of saving up for buying my own domain name and web design, I resort to archiving my original articles over there in the meantime. In fact, just a while ago, I decided to post about my very own TOP FIVE CONSIDERATIONS in doing or making selfie shots. Since almost everyone is doing “selfie” these days, I thought it would be fun and practicable to write about the topic.

So there. If you have spare time. check out the aforementioned articleI just wrote and see whether you share the same techniques and sentiments with me, about taking selfie shots.


Happy reading!