College of Law — At Last!

For those who had followed my journey from college years, graduation, passing the Philippine nurse licensure exam, until when I finally get to practice as a nurse, they would be witnesses on how much I’d do anything just to pursue law studies.

I had always been honest that I didn’t like taking-up B.S. Nursing, and that my study of the course — given the hurdles of maintaining a good standing and scholar status — had been painstaking four years ago. Even so, I managed to finish the course due to the will of my parents and my desire not to fail them. During such time, I had not been able to do the things I liked because I’m scared to be kicked out from my university — Yes, my alma mater eliminates students who cannot “keep up” because we really don’t pay much, so they’re kind of strict with the grades.  I guess I had done some ranting about this in the very first post I wrote for this blog site.

Luckily through the years, I came to love the discipline my parents [gravely] pushed me into entering. Now, I work as a National Program Officer for Male Involvement for Safe Motherhood, through NSV (no-scalpel vasectomy), in one of United Nation Populations Fund’s implementing partners in the Philppines — the Cooperative Movement for Encouraging NSV (CMEN). I owe to nursing all the pleasant things I experience now, aside from the fact that the CMEN had opened wonderful opportunities for me as a person. Don’t worry, I’ll catch up as I’d write a blog on that in the succeeding days…

Even with the newly found happiness brought upon by nursing, still, there’s a big part of me calling to pursue my dream of becoming a lawyer. This “calling” had been postponed a number of times, which even came to a point of becoming neglected…

Finally, after four painstaking and trying years, I made it! I feel so mighty proud…

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Even passing the Law Aptitude Examination to become qualified in the College of Law was never easy at all. To be honest, I wasn’t expecting this “triumph” because I had no time reviewing for the entrance test due to my hectic schedule at work back then. That’s why after getting that you-qualify-to-the-college-of-law call, I couldn’t help but shout for joy!

Later, I will be enrolling to pay for my tuition fee. It’s actually the first step of reaching my lawyer-dream…

And also the very first to others I have yet to take…

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Tina’s Prayer for Her Sanity – A Plea for Answers

Dear Lord,

I am now staring in front of my netbook screen, thinking how life could have been if things were a little different. I was just thinking how I would have become had I not agreed to succumb to matters that periled me seven years ago….

Please don’t get me wrong. I am absolutely thankful with whatever I have right now. Who would complain on enjoyable set of friends, cool band mates, remarkable job opportunities, and protective family. Truly, I am grateful to all these things you have bestowed upon me. Not everyone can experience all of them at the same time. And I couldn’t ask for more. But sometimes, there are issues that I feel are not yet resolved and dwelt upon. That there are various aspects in my life that need to be clarified, settled, or let go if necessary…

Writing this letter to you takes a lot of courage because I don’t even know if you’d care to read at all. Nonetheless, I better do this. For the love of sanity…

You see, I am having some difficulties in terms of my music. Not that I complain about it. I can never ask for anything more than a lovely voice and inclination to creating prodigious melodies, from which you’ve already given me. However, with the type of progress that I have right now, I have to admit it’s kind of disturbing. I know for a fact that you have always known that I want to do music for the rest of my life. No matter what endeavour it might be, you know I’d create songs and engage to musical attempts in a heartbeat. But will I ever get rewarded?

On the other side other than my creative predisposition, you know better that I also wanted to become a lawyer. In fact, you’ve always known that I’d be very determined to undertake the path to such field. Though I am not quite sure, I am pretty confident that you have given me the means and capabilities to become one. But why have I been led to a different track?

Oops, by the way. I am not ranting about the things you’ve given me beyond my control. I don’t blame anyone, even my parents, when my right to choose for my own future was jeopardized. More so, I don’t express disgust of them being so manipulative of my decisions in terms of my college course and future. I am lucky to have my parents around. And I owe you for that. I also don’t complain for discrimination and musical indifferences. I know for sure that you all gave me this to become a much better person.

But sometimes God, it’s so much devastating that I end up staring at blank space drifting away. I engage to oblivion daydreaming as I attempt to shield myself off from chaos and distraction. And yeah, PAIN. It hurts so much dear Lord that I don’t have the power to know if my sacrifices are worth it or if I’d ever end up to be the person that I want to be.

And people don’t understand. Just because you equipped me with the means to become tough, that they don’t know that I’m also a weak duckling inside; that I need nurturing, reassurance, and comfort; that I am a human too just like them.
That I am vulnerable… And now, my soul is tattered and torn.

Do I ever get to reach that little faint star I’m trying to achieve?

It’s funny how I want an answer yet don’t want to hear about it.

For now, I just want people to understand me. See me in a macro-perspective. Those people I love and care the most.

Family.

Friends.

Band mates.

Pets. (yeah, Cookie and Chuckie.)

Axle.

I pray that they understand how a terrible wreck I am right now and it’s not my fault.

I was just trying to deal, compensate, and sustain. And in the past seven years of bearing, this has what become of me.

God, I know there’s no point of doing this. I think writing this letter is useless because I should be getting ready for my upcoming interview instead. However, I felt compelled to draft this one…

For the love of sanity.

I’ve laid out all my cards dear God. I surrender to you my game.

Thank you,

Tina

Wanna Teach Me Dog to Dooooogggiiee!

In the past few days, I had been so tired and busy (all at the same time) from my 12-day Diabetes Education Training. Am still on my third day and things seem to be harder than I expected. But I love it! I love how those experts from the Association of Diabetes Nurse Educators of the Philippines (ADNEP) are so brilliant, patient, and helpful. I can really feel that they want us to become the greatest diabetes educators that we could be.

Anyway, I came across this video and I just have to share this. Watch to see how adorable Pudsey is! :)

For sure, you’d be blown away!

♥ TINA ♥

What I Did to My Wall…

Once in a while, we need a thing or two to remind and MOTIVATE us about accomplishing our goals and priorities in life. Hence, people have found planners and sticky pads indispensable. For some reasons, these articles (and similar ones) have been effective in giving us a constant reminder that we should keep on moving forward everyday. However, as for me, I don’t find making “to-do lists” fun and necessary; given my home-based work conditions. Furthermore, I am quite fortunate to be saved of too much responsibility or obligations. The only concern that I have to deal with is admonishing my procrastinating and idling tendencies. So here’s what I did:

Statement papers plastered on my bedroom/workroom wall.

I took the initiative to write some valuable statements (for me) in pieces of paper; then highlighted each letter with a neon marker. This way, rest assured that these tiny reminders will stand out on my bedroom wall and would definitely catch my attention. Basically, by mere looking at this photo, you would know exactly what my problematic areas are. Hahahaha! They’re plainly written yet boldly expressed.

What do you do to remind yourself to keep everything on track?

♥ TINA ♥

My Take on Modelling

Before anything else, I would like to tell everyone that I am not the typical model type. I only stand 5 feet and 5 inches tall. And as for my vital statistics, mine’s incomparable to Tyra Banks or Claudia Schiffer.

When people hear about the term “model” or “modelling”, they can’t help but think of someone in bikini, sky-high heels, or sexy outfit. And most of the time, they refer to runway models. Talking about stereotyping… In actuality, everyone can be a model. I did it, so even you can do it too. My modelling stint did not involve posing for a men’s magazine though. But I definitely made it to a Philippine health magazine cover:

The one in studded white top at the middle, is me.

The photo above is just some of my works as the Rachell Allen IMAGE model. Becoming an image model differs from other types of modelling because it requires someone to take full representation of an institution or advocacy. In my case, I get to represent Rachell Allen Reviewers, USA – a center for nursing excellence providing NCLEX, IELTS, HAAD, and Philippine Nurse Licensure Exam coaching programs or intensive review sessions for registered nurses and nursing students, alike. And since I am a nurse by profession, I was able to meet one of the institute’s requisites. But before I became entitled with such representation, I had to join a competition first. With that said, I decided to give 2011 Rachell Allen Image Model Search a try.

Rachell Allen Image Model Search. At the Rachell Allen Reviewers, USA, this event serves as the company’s annual tradition. Every year, they opt to choose new individuals to represent what they do and believe on, and that is – COMMITMENT TO EXCELLENCE AND BRIDGING TIES WITHIN THE NURSING COMMUNITY (I don’t know the exact mission and vision statement they have but I guess I have summarized everything in that premise I came up with.) So, they launch a yearly image model competition from which they will choose among several contestants the new models for their brand.

For you to become part of the competition here are some of the immediate requirements you have to fulfill:

  • You have to be a Registered Nurse or a BSN graduate
  • Student Nurses are also welcome to join
  • Passion for nursing and the nursing profession
  • Commitment to excellence.

Basically, I have at least two of the four requirements which entitled me to be part of the said image model search competition. I began by attending a series of go-sees and interviews before I finally landed on a spot among other twenty (20) finalists.

Here are some of the photos I had during the competition:

My Rachell Allen Family at Jardin De Antonio, Tanuan, Batangas

I really think this photo's funny... :)

The Rachell Allen Image Model Search is executed in the form of a nursing pageant. During the night of such pageantry, I did not expect of anything. Instead, I just enjoyed every moment of it. Maybe the natural radiance and enthusiasm I showed during the program had played a big role in success of becoming the Rachell Allen Image Model Search FEMALE GRANDWINNER. It was such a rewarding experience!

To give you a glimpse of what I’ve been up to during the competition and pageant, here are some snap shots that you might want to check out:

(I am candidate number 7.)

Before the pageant/program started.

Opening with my partner, Aaron.

Aaron and I in our nurse's uniform.

Victory!

Candidate Number 7 as the Grand Winner.

With JC Bacanto, Male Grand Winner

That night was so magical, so as the image model search as a whole. Until now, I can still remember everything I did and all the trials and sacrifices I’ve experienced along the way. This competition opened up a lot of opportunities for me not only as a nurse professional, but as a person. And for that, I am very thankful.

When I was working as a Triage Nurse from my previous employer, I had to say that I have a pretty ordinary and boring life. Until I won from the Rachell Allen Image Model Search.

My photo in a magazine-inspired theme.

Never thought I’d become a cover girl and an image model. Until Rachell Allen happened…

 

Thank you for reading. See you next time!

 

♥ TINA ♥