Singing Along “Sad Movies”

According to Papa, I would always sing the song entitled, “Sad Movies”. He further added that my favorite line then was, “Ooh… Sad Movies… Always make me cry…”

Now I realize, even happy memories make me burst into sobs and tears.

(Circa 1990)

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Look, I’m on TV – HOSTING!

I’ve always thought it’s not possible for an ordinary nurse, like me, to be seen in national television. But because of series of events, which started to take place last year, I think mass media can also become one of the most promising undertakings for any registered nurse.

It all began when I first appeared for two episodes of one of the known morning drama shows in GMA Philippines, entitled “MAYNILA”. When I was still playing with my band my self-composed original vocal melody compositions (together with my bandmates’ collective musical arrangement) which were turned into songs, two of those original song compositions were aired and played in two individual program episodes. And if I’m not mistaken, they were played sometime in March of this year.

After the said musical endeavor, the realms of television and mass communication had been very friendly and accommodating to me. And the next thing I knew, I was already a regular co-host for a business portal cable show called, “What’s Up Doc, by Dr. John Cenica”. I can still remember how I ended up being one of the program’s hosts…

The topic we tackled in the most recent episode I’ve hosted in, with Dr. Cenica of “What’s Up Doc?”, was all about BEAUTY QUEEN SECRETS. Here are some of the photos we had that day:

Playing camerawoman. Will I pass being one? Lol.

Dr. Cenica thought I’d like to do this show with him mainly because I’ve once become a “beauty queen” (In my own rights!) myself, being the grand winner of the 2011 Rachell Allen Image Model Search. In this photo, I was LITERALLY blown away by Ms. Island Philippines’ beautiful face, height, and glamorous gait!

And since we’re talking about television hosting… Aside from personality, good facial “register” on television, and good command of English (or any type of lingua franca or vernacular language inherent to the country he lives in) – what do you think an aspiring host needs in order to succeed?

Actually, I made a list of some of the easiest tips that worked for me. Please feel free to check them out and comment on them. :)

Tell me about your thoughts on these things.

♥ TINA ♥

Is There Such Thing as DISADVANTAGES in Rock Music?

Sure there is. And in my years of experience, I can attest to such proposition. In fact, I was able to come up with the topmost five shortcomings any rock musician performing alongside with a band may, in a way or another, encounter.

Why am I so sure? This is because I’ve seen how these five ruined my past endeavors. They even did the same to others hehehe…

Oh, before I forget… I would like to tell everyone that I also write for another blog, other than those I created here in wordpress. It’s in blogger. For now that I still don’t have the capacity to provide for a self-hosted site, I treat such blogger site as my current and official repository of my original articles and works.

Now back to business…

If you’d like to check out some insights about rock music and how some bands won’t just work out, you may click here, NOW. :)

For musicians, how true can these be? I’d love to hear your thoughts! :)

♥ TINA ♥

A Simple Guide on How to Dance in a Club – SUPER FUN!

I’m never a fan of dancing clubs or bars. The only time I go to a bar is when I am scheduled to perform either solo or with my band. Technically, I don’t dance either. But I drink, of course. I drink lots of lukewarm water, which waiters/waitresses find odd whenever I order for one. Hahaha!

But dancing in a club is not a bad idea after all, right? It could be a good  way of releasing inhibitions and relieving stress. Might as well give it a try one of these days. :)

Anyway, I found this hilarious video about some club dance moves one would typically find in a bar scene or event. Personally, I find them very fascinating. I never thought they can be assigned with different names.

For those of you who frequent clubs or bars, are all these true? Could the dance moves be so precise after all? Either way, I am very much willing to give them a try and see what particular dance move/s would work for me. Lol.

This is a great way to start my “day” even though I just woke up just two hours ago…

Hope you have a wonderful day ahead. ♥

♥ TINA ♥

Tina’s Prayer for Her Sanity – A Plea for Answers

Dear Lord,

I am now staring in front of my netbook screen, thinking how life could have been if things were a little different. I was just thinking how I would have become had I not agreed to succumb to matters that periled me seven years ago….

Please don’t get me wrong. I am absolutely thankful with whatever I have right now. Who would complain on enjoyable set of friends, cool band mates, remarkable job opportunities, and protective family. Truly, I am grateful to all these things you have bestowed upon me. Not everyone can experience all of them at the same time. And I couldn’t ask for more. But sometimes, there are issues that I feel are not yet resolved and dwelt upon. That there are various aspects in my life that need to be clarified, settled, or let go if necessary…

Writing this letter to you takes a lot of courage because I don’t even know if you’d care to read at all. Nonetheless, I better do this. For the love of sanity…

You see, I am having some difficulties in terms of my music. Not that I complain about it. I can never ask for anything more than a lovely voice and inclination to creating prodigious melodies, from which you’ve already given me. However, with the type of progress that I have right now, I have to admit it’s kind of disturbing. I know for a fact that you have always known that I want to do music for the rest of my life. No matter what endeavour it might be, you know I’d create songs and engage to musical attempts in a heartbeat. But will I ever get rewarded?

On the other side other than my creative predisposition, you know better that I also wanted to become a lawyer. In fact, you’ve always known that I’d be very determined to undertake the path to such field. Though I am not quite sure, I am pretty confident that you have given me the means and capabilities to become one. But why have I been led to a different track?

Oops, by the way. I am not ranting about the things you’ve given me beyond my control. I don’t blame anyone, even my parents, when my right to choose for my own future was jeopardized. More so, I don’t express disgust of them being so manipulative of my decisions in terms of my college course and future. I am lucky to have my parents around. And I owe you for that. I also don’t complain for discrimination and musical indifferences. I know for sure that you all gave me this to become a much better person.

But sometimes God, it’s so much devastating that I end up staring at blank space drifting away. I engage to oblivion daydreaming as I attempt to shield myself off from chaos and distraction. And yeah, PAIN. It hurts so much dear Lord that I don’t have the power to know if my sacrifices are worth it or if I’d ever end up to be the person that I want to be.

And people don’t understand. Just because you equipped me with the means to become tough, that they don’t know that I’m also a weak duckling inside; that I need nurturing, reassurance, and comfort; that I am a human too just like them.
That I am vulnerable… And now, my soul is tattered and torn.

Do I ever get to reach that little faint star I’m trying to achieve?

It’s funny how I want an answer yet don’t want to hear about it.

For now, I just want people to understand me. See me in a macro-perspective. Those people I love and care the most.

Family.

Friends.

Band mates.

Pets. (yeah, Cookie and Chuckie.)

Axle.

I pray that they understand how a terrible wreck I am right now and it’s not my fault.

I was just trying to deal, compensate, and sustain. And in the past seven years of bearing, this has what become of me.

God, I know there’s no point of doing this. I think writing this letter is useless because I should be getting ready for my upcoming interview instead. However, I felt compelled to draft this one…

For the love of sanity.

I’ve laid out all my cards dear God. I surrender to you my game.

Thank you,

Tina