Singing Along “Sad Movies”

According to Papa, I would always sing the song entitled, “Sad Movies”. He further added that my favorite line then was, “Ooh… Sad Movies… Always make me cry…”

Now I realize, even happy memories make me burst into sobs and tears.

(Circa 1990)

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What’s Up Doc? by Dr. John Cenica

I have this fondness of sending Facebook friend requests to people who belong within my network, regardless of whether I know them personally or not. Last Tuesday, I stumbled upon the profile of an esteemed cosmetic surgeon to the stars, named Dr. John Cenica.

Dr. John Cenica, the founder of the Jancen Cosmetics Surgery, was very friendly and accommodating. I happen to see his profile in the right panel of my facebook dashboard, among friends suggestions within the network I belong into. So, I decided to add him up. To be honest, I was not expecting his response at all. However, among all the suggested friends that I added up, it was so ironic that he was the one who responded promptly. Someone as “big time” as him… Gee, I can never imagine! We had a little chat over Facebook, up to the point when he called me up for almost thirty minutes or so over the phone, in order to share with me a meaningful and productive discussion.

And finally, last Thursday, I got the opportunity to meet Dr. Cenica, personally. You wouldn’t imagine how “starstruck” I was. Lol. Despite of the recognition he receives, Dr. John Cenica (or Doc Jancen) never let things get into his head. You know from the very start that he’s a down-to-earth person. Fame and success were never an issue for him.

One of the things that we have discussed, during our brief meeting at the Robinson’s Place Manila, was about the co-hosting stint that he would like to assign to me in the coming weeks. Doctor Jancen happens to be the host of one of Global News Network’s (GNN) morning-shift and all-time favorite shows,  called “WHAT’S UP DOC?”

And today was the realization of such “assignment”.

This morning, upon arriving at the GNN studio (at Makati) at about ten o’ clock, I touched down the realms of mass communication without apt equipment and orientation. However, with the help of Dr. Cenica, I was able to make my way through the entire segment – safe and sound. Hahahaha! The topic we discussed and presented in the show was everything about BODY DYSMORPHIC DISORDER, a category of mental health condition that falls under somatoform disorders.

It has been a very interesting segment because such condition was linked to cosmetic surgery, while tackling other relevant medical and psychiatric approaches and concepts in between.

It was literally FUN, FUN, FUN. The conversational presentation of the said topic was so enjoyable, we didn’t even notice that we only had three minutes left in the show to bid our audience good bye. How time flies so fast when you’re having a great time!

After the show, I was surprised on how much everyone appreciated my hosting skills. I am very happy to hear the director’s, as well as the doctors’, positive comments; however, I still recognize the need to fortify such act. That’s why, I finally decided to join their upcoming shows and be Dr. Jancen’s apprentice. Hahaha!

It’s more fun to be a nurse, singer, blogger, songwriter, and HOST. I’m wondering what activity will I try doing next?

We’ll see…

And oh, for those who weren’t able to watch today’s episode of “What’s Up Doc?” – fret no more! It will be replayed tomorrow morning at 12NN. I hope you guys can all tune in at Destiny Cable’s GNN channel.

Then if you do see me, tell me what your thoughts are…

Will I pass being your morning show host? :)

♥ TINA ♥

Tina’s Prayer for Her Sanity – A Plea for Answers

Dear Lord,

I am now staring in front of my netbook screen, thinking how life could have been if things were a little different. I was just thinking how I would have become had I not agreed to succumb to matters that periled me seven years ago….

Please don’t get me wrong. I am absolutely thankful with whatever I have right now. Who would complain on enjoyable set of friends, cool band mates, remarkable job opportunities, and protective family. Truly, I am grateful to all these things you have bestowed upon me. Not everyone can experience all of them at the same time. And I couldn’t ask for more. But sometimes, there are issues that I feel are not yet resolved and dwelt upon. That there are various aspects in my life that need to be clarified, settled, or let go if necessary…

Writing this letter to you takes a lot of courage because I don’t even know if you’d care to read at all. Nonetheless, I better do this. For the love of sanity…

You see, I am having some difficulties in terms of my music. Not that I complain about it. I can never ask for anything more than a lovely voice and inclination to creating prodigious melodies, from which you’ve already given me. However, with the type of progress that I have right now, I have to admit it’s kind of disturbing. I know for a fact that you have always known that I want to do music for the rest of my life. No matter what endeavour it might be, you know I’d create songs and engage to musical attempts in a heartbeat. But will I ever get rewarded?

On the other side other than my creative predisposition, you know better that I also wanted to become a lawyer. In fact, you’ve always known that I’d be very determined to undertake the path to such field. Though I am not quite sure, I am pretty confident that you have given me the means and capabilities to become one. But why have I been led to a different track?

Oops, by the way. I am not ranting about the things you’ve given me beyond my control. I don’t blame anyone, even my parents, when my right to choose for my own future was jeopardized. More so, I don’t express disgust of them being so manipulative of my decisions in terms of my college course and future. I am lucky to have my parents around. And I owe you for that. I also don’t complain for discrimination and musical indifferences. I know for sure that you all gave me this to become a much better person.

But sometimes God, it’s so much devastating that I end up staring at blank space drifting away. I engage to oblivion daydreaming as I attempt to shield myself off from chaos and distraction. And yeah, PAIN. It hurts so much dear Lord that I don’t have the power to know if my sacrifices are worth it or if I’d ever end up to be the person that I want to be.

And people don’t understand. Just because you equipped me with the means to become tough, that they don’t know that I’m also a weak duckling inside; that I need nurturing, reassurance, and comfort; that I am a human too just like them.
That I am vulnerable… And now, my soul is tattered and torn.

Do I ever get to reach that little faint star I’m trying to achieve?

It’s funny how I want an answer yet don’t want to hear about it.

For now, I just want people to understand me. See me in a macro-perspective. Those people I love and care the most.

Family.

Friends.

Band mates.

Pets. (yeah, Cookie and Chuckie.)

Axle.

I pray that they understand how a terrible wreck I am right now and it’s not my fault.

I was just trying to deal, compensate, and sustain. And in the past seven years of bearing, this has what become of me.

God, I know there’s no point of doing this. I think writing this letter is useless because I should be getting ready for my upcoming interview instead. However, I felt compelled to draft this one…

For the love of sanity.

I’ve laid out all my cards dear God. I surrender to you my game.

Thank you,

Tina

Easter Sunday Videoke Galore for Joshua’s Delayed Birthday Celebration!

In the recent days, my family and I observed usual Catholic and Filipino traditions as much as we could by eating anything aside from meat. We also allotted such days to reflection and contemplation. We did these for three consecutive days and everyone’s in almost total silent mode. These scenarios made it difficult for Joshua, my younger brother, to celebrate his 14th Birthday; most especially that his special date landed on a Good Friday. This meant completely abstaining from eating his favorite food: spaghetti, grilled pork chops, ice cream, and shanghai. To make up for the supposed b-day celeb last April 7, we all decided to just throw a party on the Easter Sunday.

We had a simple gathering to whom Joshua’s friends, JC’s (my brother born next to me) high school cliques, and my band mates from AMIHAN attended. I was not able to get a lot of photos but I guess the following would encompass the highlights:

Here’s Mike striking a pose. Lol.

This is Jay-Ar. He plays for Amihan in place of our old guitarist, Jayson.

Now here’s our adorable and talented lead guitarist, Karl. One thing I can tell about him is he never separates himself from his guitar. Hehehe!

Before we proceed, here are some of the table set-ups from last night’s celeb. The first one’s taken at our table; while the second one’s a photo of the b-day celebrant’s (Joshua) area.

Meanwhile, we had Francis on board later in the party. He’s a very good friend to our band. Apart from being one of our loyal buddies and listeners, he is also a relative to Mike (Amihan’s drummer). Francis happens to be the husband of the sister of Mike’s wife. In this photo, he candidly gave me a “tweetum” pose.

Last night’s bandwagon was videoke galore. Funny how everyone joined in!

Oh look at Francis as he advances nearer to the videoke box! So eager is this guy! Lol.

One of the avid singers of the night is Jude, our dear friend/bassist.

Then after him, everyone just plunged in! Hahaha! Too bad I was only able to take photos of Mike and Francis. Karl and Jay-ar had their fair share of song renditions in the latter part of the videoke marathon but I was so carried away with all the fun that I forgot to take some other shots. Darn!

Francis singing for the “nth” time… Hahaha!

 And here’s mike imitating a typical rock star pose…

Mike strumming an INVISIBLE guitar. Lol.

Meanwhile, here’s how the rest of Joshua’s party proceeded last night.

Some guitar discourse shared by Karl and Jay-Ar (on the first photo) and other candid snap shots from the others (succeeding pictures).

In general, last night’s party was a bash. Joshua was so delighted. You can really see it on his face. 

Thank you very much for reading!

Belated Happy Birthday Joshua!

And belated Happy Easter to everyone!

♥ TINA ♥

My Band’s First Television Feature (Almost Five Minutes of Fame)

Earlier this morning, I remembered that today’s date is March 17 – the day when our very first feature episode will be aired. Over a month a go, we’ve been chosen as feature band at GMA 7’s “Maynila”. This morning program relates various Filipino values and real-life situations in a form of dramatized stories. Every episode showcases a song that’s fit to the theme of the featured story. And I am very proud to say that two from my band’s five original song compositions were chosen; out of the three demos we had submitted. So last February 16, we were invited for a two-song music video shoot which will be incorporated to a specific program the management will choose that they see fit for our songs.

Ladies and gentlemen, my fellow Filipino kababayans, here’s a part of the March 17, 2012 MAYNILA episode. Introducing, our band AMIHAN and our original song composition called “BYAHE”:

I never thought I’d look good on TV. Haha! I’d like to call this exposure my band’s “five minute fame”.

The said video was posted on the day the episode was aired. You may watch the full-length episode video by typing in “Maynila March 17, 2012 episode” on Youtube. Don’t worry because even though several options would pop-out, they are very easy to discriminate. Thus, you won’t have a hard time landing on the right link to watch the whole story.

It feels good to be part of such well-known program knowing that I and my band mates are newbie artists in the music industry…

Please tell me what you guys think after watching. :)

♥ TINA ♥