Singing Along “Sad Movies”

According to Papa, I would always sing the song entitled, “Sad Movies”. He further added that my favorite line then was, “Ooh… Sad Movies… Always make me cry…”

Now I realize, even happy memories make me burst into sobs and tears.

(Circa 1990)

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Look, I’m on TV – HOSTING!

I’ve always thought it’s not possible for an ordinary nurse, like me, to be seen in national television. But because of series of events, which started to take place last year, I think mass media can also become one of the most promising undertakings for any registered nurse.

It all began when I first appeared for two episodes of one of the known morning drama shows in GMA Philippines, entitled “MAYNILA”. When I was still playing with my band my self-composed original vocal melody compositions (together with my bandmates’ collective musical arrangement) which were turned into songs, two of those original song compositions were aired and played in two individual program episodes. And if I’m not mistaken, they were played sometime in March of this year.

After the said musical endeavor, the realms of television and mass communication had been very friendly and accommodating to me. And the next thing I knew, I was already a regular co-host for a business portal cable show called, “What’s Up Doc, by Dr. John Cenica”. I can still remember how I ended up being one of the program’s hosts…

The topic we tackled in the most recent episode I’ve hosted in, with Dr. Cenica of “What’s Up Doc?”, was all about BEAUTY QUEEN SECRETS. Here are some of the photos we had that day:

Playing camerawoman. Will I pass being one? Lol.

Dr. Cenica thought I’d like to do this show with him mainly because I’ve once become a “beauty queen” (In my own rights!) myself, being the grand winner of the 2011 Rachell Allen Image Model Search. In this photo, I was LITERALLY blown away by Ms. Island Philippines’ beautiful face, height, and glamorous gait!

And since we’re talking about television hosting… Aside from personality, good facial “register” on television, and good command of English (or any type of lingua franca or vernacular language inherent to the country he lives in) – what do you think an aspiring host needs in order to succeed?

Actually, I made a list of some of the easiest tips that worked for me. Please feel free to check them out and comment on them. :)

Tell me about your thoughts on these things.

♥ TINA ♥

Tina’s Prayer for Her Sanity – A Plea for Answers

Dear Lord,

I am now staring in front of my netbook screen, thinking how life could have been if things were a little different. I was just thinking how I would have become had I not agreed to succumb to matters that periled me seven years ago….

Please don’t get me wrong. I am absolutely thankful with whatever I have right now. Who would complain on enjoyable set of friends, cool band mates, remarkable job opportunities, and protective family. Truly, I am grateful to all these things you have bestowed upon me. Not everyone can experience all of them at the same time. And I couldn’t ask for more. But sometimes, there are issues that I feel are not yet resolved and dwelt upon. That there are various aspects in my life that need to be clarified, settled, or let go if necessary…

Writing this letter to you takes a lot of courage because I don’t even know if you’d care to read at all. Nonetheless, I better do this. For the love of sanity…

You see, I am having some difficulties in terms of my music. Not that I complain about it. I can never ask for anything more than a lovely voice and inclination to creating prodigious melodies, from which you’ve already given me. However, with the type of progress that I have right now, I have to admit it’s kind of disturbing. I know for a fact that you have always known that I want to do music for the rest of my life. No matter what endeavour it might be, you know I’d create songs and engage to musical attempts in a heartbeat. But will I ever get rewarded?

On the other side other than my creative predisposition, you know better that I also wanted to become a lawyer. In fact, you’ve always known that I’d be very determined to undertake the path to such field. Though I am not quite sure, I am pretty confident that you have given me the means and capabilities to become one. But why have I been led to a different track?

Oops, by the way. I am not ranting about the things you’ve given me beyond my control. I don’t blame anyone, even my parents, when my right to choose for my own future was jeopardized. More so, I don’t express disgust of them being so manipulative of my decisions in terms of my college course and future. I am lucky to have my parents around. And I owe you for that. I also don’t complain for discrimination and musical indifferences. I know for sure that you all gave me this to become a much better person.

But sometimes God, it’s so much devastating that I end up staring at blank space drifting away. I engage to oblivion daydreaming as I attempt to shield myself off from chaos and distraction. And yeah, PAIN. It hurts so much dear Lord that I don’t have the power to know if my sacrifices are worth it or if I’d ever end up to be the person that I want to be.

And people don’t understand. Just because you equipped me with the means to become tough, that they don’t know that I’m also a weak duckling inside; that I need nurturing, reassurance, and comfort; that I am a human too just like them.
That I am vulnerable… And now, my soul is tattered and torn.

Do I ever get to reach that little faint star I’m trying to achieve?

It’s funny how I want an answer yet don’t want to hear about it.

For now, I just want people to understand me. See me in a macro-perspective. Those people I love and care the most.

Family.

Friends.

Band mates.

Pets. (yeah, Cookie and Chuckie.)

Axle.

I pray that they understand how a terrible wreck I am right now and it’s not my fault.

I was just trying to deal, compensate, and sustain. And in the past seven years of bearing, this has what become of me.

God, I know there’s no point of doing this. I think writing this letter is useless because I should be getting ready for my upcoming interview instead. However, I felt compelled to draft this one…

For the love of sanity.

I’ve laid out all my cards dear God. I surrender to you my game.

Thank you,

Tina

Easter Sunday Videoke Galore for Joshua’s Delayed Birthday Celebration!

In the recent days, my family and I observed usual Catholic and Filipino traditions as much as we could by eating anything aside from meat. We also allotted such days to reflection and contemplation. We did these for three consecutive days and everyone’s in almost total silent mode. These scenarios made it difficult for Joshua, my younger brother, to celebrate his 14th Birthday; most especially that his special date landed on a Good Friday. This meant completely abstaining from eating his favorite food: spaghetti, grilled pork chops, ice cream, and shanghai. To make up for the supposed b-day celeb last April 7, we all decided to just throw a party on the Easter Sunday.

We had a simple gathering to whom Joshua’s friends, JC’s (my brother born next to me) high school cliques, and my band mates from AMIHAN attended. I was not able to get a lot of photos but I guess the following would encompass the highlights:

Here’s Mike striking a pose. Lol.

This is Jay-Ar. He plays for Amihan in place of our old guitarist, Jayson.

Now here’s our adorable and talented lead guitarist, Karl. One thing I can tell about him is he never separates himself from his guitar. Hehehe!

Before we proceed, here are some of the table set-ups from last night’s celeb. The first one’s taken at our table; while the second one’s a photo of the b-day celebrant’s (Joshua) area.

Meanwhile, we had Francis on board later in the party. He’s a very good friend to our band. Apart from being one of our loyal buddies and listeners, he is also a relative to Mike (Amihan’s drummer). Francis happens to be the husband of the sister of Mike’s wife. In this photo, he candidly gave me a “tweetum” pose.

Last night’s bandwagon was videoke galore. Funny how everyone joined in!

Oh look at Francis as he advances nearer to the videoke box! So eager is this guy! Lol.

One of the avid singers of the night is Jude, our dear friend/bassist.

Then after him, everyone just plunged in! Hahaha! Too bad I was only able to take photos of Mike and Francis. Karl and Jay-ar had their fair share of song renditions in the latter part of the videoke marathon but I was so carried away with all the fun that I forgot to take some other shots. Darn!

Francis singing for the “nth” time… Hahaha!

 And here’s mike imitating a typical rock star pose…

Mike strumming an INVISIBLE guitar. Lol.

Meanwhile, here’s how the rest of Joshua’s party proceeded last night.

Some guitar discourse shared by Karl and Jay-Ar (on the first photo) and other candid snap shots from the others (succeeding pictures).

In general, last night’s party was a bash. Joshua was so delighted. You can really see it on his face. 

Thank you very much for reading!

Belated Happy Birthday Joshua!

And belated Happy Easter to everyone!

♥ TINA ♥

ON MY OWN from Les Miserables – My Own Rendition

I’ve always been fascinated with broadway songs and musicales. I especially love Ms. Saigon, Phantom of the Opera, Cats, and Les Miserables. You see, when I was still in high school, I’d join choir and theater groups so I can do the thing I love doing the most – SINGING. I even auditioned for a theater arts course in my senior year. Unfortunately, my parents won’t allow me to pursue such career. So instead, they imposed that I take up nursing. So I did…

But having been unable to pursue formal training in singing and theater acting didn’t stop me from singing and performing. I love rendering music using my God-given ability. So I decided to form a band and continue…

People have known me as the vocalist of a pop-rock band, called AMIHAN. But during my free-time, I take the opportunity to learn and sing classical and broadway music. Here’s one I did just an hour ago:

What do you think about it? I hope you guys like it.

Share with me your thoughts. :)

♥ TINA ♥